Old, But New Here

This is an old lament from OK Cupid earlier in the year. I got myself in a quite sticky situation.:


I went on a couple dates with a beautiful and seemingly kind woman. We met eachother while she was at the bar with another guy I knew. She told me I was cute then, and said this guy was just her friend. I am not sure now if its true. He was quite jealous and acted liked he loved her, after knowing her for only a few weeks himself.

We connected on our dates, and in short time, developed an intimate bond. All I wanted was a kiss. What I got was everthing. We messaged eachother via text. She was getting a late start in life due to a possibly shady past and becoming a mother twice. She was in school for nursing.

She lived in her "Ex-boyfriend's" house. I put it in quotes, because he isn't under the impression they are broken up. He was locked up for some crimes and shortly after my dates with her, he had gotten out. He's due for more sentencing in a month or so for other crimes. She's playing a role so she can still have a home for her (their) family.I had a good friend tell me to run away. I didn't listen right away.

It is my understanding that she isn't happy, and I trusted her feelings and intentions for me are true. I tried to break off for practical reasons, but I was begged back in. "One short month". I still adored the person I knew. I don't know if I could help her.. if I could bring someone happiness. She is clearly stuck.

But now we won't speak for a while due to another family emergency she's having. Meanwhile, there was a little war between the guy she was with at the bar and his lady friend got in the mix as well. My character has been attacked. I'm told over and over by others to run away. Get out. No woman is worth this.

I'm getting away this time. When she calls or texts in a week or two, I will put my foot down. It will be tough for me. She'll try to beg me back in. Become my friend. I can only hope I have enough will power to resist her.

Sure, it's one month before the baby-daddy is back in the clink.I would be free to come out fro mthe shaddows and see her. But, for how long? What would be next?

I am way too nice for this bullshit. I dont get involved in shady business. I don't want to be part of anybody's lie. And frankly, I don't want to put my life in danger over a woman. No amount of mutual attraction is worth it.


**** Update: Through short messages and a brief phone call a week or two ago, know she went through rehab for alcohol and she's trying to be a good person. She's out of his house on her own with her boys. I don't know what made me fail to see she was ever "bad". I could understand rehab from alcohol though. I still won't get involved with this person, but this is me being cheerleader from afar. YAY! GO YOU!